Grab a cuppa, get comfy and join me for our January 2017 Intuitive Reading
Happy New Year, sweet friends! I hope you're having a wonderful 2017 so far.
In this month's Intuitive Reading we're called to explore the liberating potential of The Tower when it comes to releasing pathways and projects that no longer resonate on a soul level.
It isn't always easy to embrace such energy when we've invested time and energy into pursuing a certain goal or ambition, only to find we don't feel as fulfilled or aligned as we would have hoped. We might experience feelings of guilty or shame as we realise we're suddenly facing a very different future.
Yet it's OK to experience this kind of shift - we're constantly evolving and growing and so reviewing our choices is a loving thing to do for ourselves.
Should I stay or should I go?
This time last year I felt very torn between finishing my final year of uni (yep, final year!) and starting my business. It was becoming increasingly impossible to do both and, honestly, studying for my degree no longer felt as important or as resonant as it once did.
I used to place my entire self-worth in grades and papers and exam results and such pressure acted as a big motivation for me when younger; not so much now. In addition, I only ever enjoyed studying if my heart was in it - if the subject at hand was something I felt totally swept up in and in love with. And I just didn't feel this way anymore about the courses I was taking.
I flipped from course to course in search of the "the one" only to slowly realise that what I really wanted to be doing was pouring my energy into launching Imogen Walters Intuitive and taking my studies in a new direction.
The shame and guilt were real - I've always been academic, so what did this mean? As a straight A student (aside from in maths because, well, numbers) with a passion for learning and a thirst for essay writing (yep, I LOVE a juicy essay!) it felt very disorienting to suddenly feel totally disconnected from my path, especially when I only had a year to go before graduation.
Was I backing out due to fear? Was this final year blues? Should I just buckle down, grit my teeth and get on with it? There are no wrong or right answers when it comes to making a decision like this; we can only listen to our Soul Voice and trust in our instincts.
Yes, I'd invested a ton of time and energy into growing my English Lit path, but it was making me miserable. Whenever I opened my books I felt numb. And honestly, such a numbness had been building for a while. So, I made a decision.
As Nine of Pentacles-y as my degree had become, one away from the finality and completion of the Ten, I withdrew from my course of study and put such a pathway on hold. I chose to dive headfirst into building my bizz. Honestly? It's the best decision I've ever made.
Embracing The Tower's transformative energy
Embracing The Tower's powerful lightning bolt energy of realisation, of truth suddenly revealed, means stepping into our inner knowing and bringing it forward into the world. Some might criticise our decisions, or urge us to think twice but when The Tower rumbles and tumbles in such a seemingly dramatic way it's often because it needs to.
Perhaps I'll return to formal study at some point in the future. I still crave a good essay at times! But for now my focus is on what really brings me joy and a sense of brilliant expansion. Life is too short to commit to anything less.
With so much love, gratitude and joy as we journey into our brand new year,